Lately, I have been really battling with God over what he has or has not called me to do. Please understand it isn't that he asked something of me that I'm not willing to do - I'm just seeking clarity and trying to lay my own personal and possibly selfish desires aside for His plans for my life. I want to hear him clearly and obey him passionately and completely.
God has been directing me to a lot of scripture recently concerning obedience vs. disobedience. I'm not talking about doing good things vs. doing 'bad' things. I'm talking about obeying God and doing what He tells me. There are lots and lots of good things we can do. There is a never ending list of things we could do that seem right and even in line with the Word of God such as caring for the poor and widows, reaching out to the lost, helping the sick, etc. God has not called each of us to be all things to all people. He has a specific and unique calling for each of us. And that is where the obedience and disobedience come in to play. Sometimes being obedient means saying 'no'.
Am I being obedient to God? Period. 1 John 3:21-22 says "Dear friends, if our hearts do not condemn us, we have confidence before God and receive from him anything we ask because we obey his commands and do what pleases him." So am I obeying his commands for my life?
Deuteronomy 28 lays it out boldly concerning obedience and disobedience. In the book of Haggai the people were so busy being about their own business and not doing what God asked of them that blessings were withheld, resources withheld and the House of the Lord was a mess. The people were so inwardly focused on their own lives and their own to-do lists and their own plans that the house of the God was being neglected. This is the kind of obedience vs. disobedience I am talking about. Have we taken the time to seek the Lord and inquire of Him as to what we are to be doing? Or are we just being busy doing something because that something seems better than nothing?